Random Thought Of The Day #560

Day 560

So I've been kinda examining my kinks recently and came to a conclusion.

I really suck at discussing them.

I mean, I have absolutely zero shame in every aspect of life... But the minute it involves discussing my kinks 1-on-1 with someone? I freeze. I have a huge problem getting the words out. And it's not like they're even that weird or anything. But because they're MINE, I guess I get all self-conscious or something.

I mean, I was trying to discuss my couple of kinks that had crossed into the realm of paraphilia the other day & I just froze. Or trying to explain the psychological side behind them. I don't know. I just can't.

Maybe it's because I've never had to do that before. I've never had to actually discuss them before. Never had to discuss them with friends or partners. They just kinda already shared them. Or I didn't care enough about how they saw me to get self-conscious.

Then again, we see how most of those relationships ended up. Haha!

Maybe that's the key though. I need to care enough about how they see me that it is hard. And as a result, make the conversation necessary & worth it in the long run.

Or maybe I'm just trying to explain why sometime I care & other times I don't.

Oh well. Continue on with your day.